**THE LEPRECHAUN HAS LANDED** 2-25-19
Feb 25, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bbFccNxdVZg

I believe we're already at the end of
the month
aren't the month the week the weekend if
I could speak right goodness today I
spent a lot of time I took a lot of time
today to decorate as you guys can see I
hope it's not too much all he was like I
see a much I'm like really so of course
I had to ya know
match match that too with my nails I do
still want to put my flower catch her
back up here but I I don't know what I
was doing but I took instead of taking
like this light pink container that I
have I took the red one and put white
over it well what's gonna happen it's
gonna turn pink this is a pink one I
should spray painted this one this one
would have come out white so yeah that
is that um but I will I'll fix it I'm
gonna have to probably do just another
coat of paint over it which is fine um
but yeah that's I mean I worked on
trying to get this thing a little bit
more organized in the sense that I'm
gonna still this pillow because my back
it's hearty um just in this sense that I
I'm trying to get like a better working
station between my epoxy cups and then
just my vinylene and in general um I
told ollie today that I think I'm gonna
have him
take another one of the shells like I
have over here and put it over on the
other side of my room and take the
dresser out so I can have one shelf that
is just all my epoxy stuff and then I
have the other shelf that's just all my
vinylene and things like that because
it's I I clearly don't have enough room
for everything and so you know I'm just
running out of space a little by little
but it's okay it will all work one way
or another but yeah it's you know kept
me very very busy today but I'm loving
it my cups are turning out beautiful I
am honestly I'm proud of myself and I'm
Tooting my own horn this time because I
really really really am so pleased at
how well these cups are turning out and
just you know it's taken a lot of time
and I think that was the other thing too
I did a lot today was I just watched a
lot of YouTube videos about the epoxy
process and how to do like what are the
different you know steps that will make
things easier or what you know how I can
get different looks and I found some new
awesome ideas I'm gonna try so I'm so
excited to be able to bust those out and
and get those cups out but I'm gonna
have to get some more epoxy because I'm
like getting low I'm like oh but you
know it's okay it's all okay it's part
of the thing now I was looking also like
um where to buy bigger quantities of my
epoxy that um I can see that the 16
ounces are gonna go fast each cup I use
about 30 30 mils of epoxy together so
once you mix them together so it's 15
and 15 because there's Part A Part B and
then you mix them I will show you guys
the process on my next cup that I do
just because you know I know that there
are some people that really want to know
and if you don't want to know then you
can just fast-forward over it um and I'm
not gonna show like process to process
and how long it takes but I'll just show
you guys how like the steps that it
takes for me to get a cup
um finished because it's really
interesting
honestly I and I love it and now that
I'm getting more of the niche of it you
know like I told you guys before I'm one
of those type of persons that I am not
satisfied until I get the process done
correctly and I will do and do and do
until it comes out number one so that is
what I have been honest to god been
working on is just you know being able
to do that and I am getting quicker at
the steps you know but you still don't
want to speed that's you know the
biggest thing is yes you want to break
out the cups and you do want to get the
stuff done but at the same time you want
to take your time because one one slip
of a step and your whole cup can be
completely garbage and you got to strip
it all and let me tell ya stripping a
cup is not fun
that part is oh my god never again but
you know you you learn you know
everything is practice and practice
makes perfect so anyways I'm really
excited I've got a few things that I
have on my list for to get at the Dollar
Tree that will help with like my
holdings and stuff because I see a lot
of people use like the footballs and
things like that from Dollar Tree so I
am definitely going to invest in some
more of those I have three but I think
I'm gonna need more and yeah so I'm so
excited I am just uh it's it's been it's
been exciting it definitely has been
something fun so anyways but other than
that it was just a lot of just working
on my cups and sorry this thing is like
all sideways it's looking like a hot hot
mess of a bow well why do you want to go
okay oh you're gonna work that way um so
yeah I'm just like you holding over
there because I'm so proud of my cup
that's turning right now and I can't
wait to show you guys but it's a
surprise
um before I forget remember I am
planning to go live on Wednesday at 5
p.m. and I think what I'm going to do
you guys I was looking on my calendar
and you know I really think that it's
important to do lives you know I really
really do and I think that it's
something that is nice to have you know
so that people can interact and I can
interact and you know so I I thought I
was gonna do two days a week but I think
I'm going to I think I'm gonna do one
one day a week so I'm gonna do
Wednesdays every Wednesday at 5 p.m. I'm
gonna do lives however if something
happens and something comes up and I've
got like a you know something I have an
appointment or something in that drastic
move then I'll jump on and put a video
up really quick saying hey you know the
life is canceled this you know tonight
or whatever but more than likely
shouldn't become that way and honestly I
mean to me I think it's very important
to keep you know my schedules as good as
possible so you know what you might get
alive while I'm out and about doing
something but you know what we will
always be live on Wednesdays unless an
emergency happens or something like that
comes up that I just can't but otherwise
start planning Wednesdays at 5:00 p.m.
Pacific Standard Time so check your
times from Pacific Standard Time what
that would be if your New York time then
that's three hours ahead of me and any
other times I don't know but yeah so
anyways um you see here I think that's
all of my announcements I do want to do
our greeting I love my book I love my
book time it's really been nice
let's see here okay so okay so we are on
June January 24th says today I choose to
honor and protect my heart space by
letting go of relationships that are
toxic inconsistent and draining ah you
guys oh let's read that one again today
I choose to honor and protect my heart
space hold on let me rephrase second
today I choose to honor and protect my
heart space by letting go of
relationships that are toxic
inconsistent and draining goes right in
with yesterday's reading it's perfectly
okay to let go of relationships that no
longer serve you it's okay to fully
immerse yourself in a new relationship
that nourishes your soul without feeling
guilty today's today I choose to honor
protect my heart space by letting go of
the relationships that are toxic
inconsistent and draining what does that
tell you guys like I mean honestly what
does that tell you and and that could be
any relationship to be honest I mean it
could be but you know it could be any
relationship really that you may have to
just accept and know that you're gonna
have to move on from it because it's not
one that is you know that is ever going
to be something that's healthy and you
know it's easy to fall into toxic
relationships it honestly honestly can
be so easy to fall into a toxic
relationship especially when you have
sometimes you know as as humans
sometimes we have the need to want to be
needed and I don't really have that type
of
like I don't have that type of need but
my need is is I like to give I like to
do I like to serve so if I can get into
a relationship where I can meet all of
those needs of my own then I feel like
it's a great relationship however that's
not a healthy relationship because it
shouldn't be all about what I can do
give and serve to somebody as much as it
should be how much I can nurture that
relationship but without having to
always feel like I have to give or you
know serve in that relationship because
then you get into those relationships
where the opposite person the other
person is the receiver and doesn't ever
feel the need to give serve or anything
in the relationship to nourish it
themselves so by the end it's become a
very toxic relationship because your
give give give give give and you finally
you get burnout you just get burnt and
you're at that point where you're just
like okay you know I've done everything
I can do to make this relationship happy
but why should it only be you why should
you be the only person that needs to be
the giver and not a receiver and I'm
learning that and it's hard to accept
sometimes because I've never really put
myself in that position because to me to
be a receiver you you are you know
stereotypically you are selfish you're
greedy you're needy you're all these
things and it's like that's the farthest
from my heart but I don't want to ever
have somebody look at me like that and
be like well you've got problems I don't
want to be that person I don't want to
be that that person of you know somebody
looking at me and thinking well all she
does is look at what she can get in a
relationship so I try to beat the person
to it and I give give give give give
it doesn't come across that I would ever
accept or expect or anything but again
that goes back to having a relationship
with boundaries you know that is the
same thing is boundary making makes a
relationship consistent and when I say
boundary making makes things consistent
boundary making is something that makes
a relationship healthy and yes you could
say that relationship boundary making
can be putting up roles but there are
rules that you expect for yourself and
that is how relationships can build on
both sides meaning for me the way that I
look at relationships is ok so here my
hair my boundaries one is I'm not always
going to be able to be on the phone 24/7
you know I am NOT going to be a
therapist I am NOT going to be a life
saver
those are my boundaries what are your
boundaries they will share with them
with me their boundaries to me before I
started learning what boundaries were
and and how to create healthy boundaries
I thought boundaries were a very rude
thing to put together I felt like
boundary making was something where
people put things up because they didn't
trust me that's how I felt boundaries
were at one time was boundaries people
put up or because they didn't trust me
as a person and that's the furthest
thing from the truth that's not true at
all but that's how Amy took it now I
have learned that oh wait a minute hold
on that's not how I want to you know
look at boundaries because boundaries
are healthy boundaries can be a
beautiful thing and boundaries can save
relationships you know but it's very
important
at the beginning of the relationship to
lay those boundaries so that you and the
person that you're building that
relationship with constantly know what
is expected and what's not expected in
the whole situation together
so anyways having those boundaries
though it's not it's not a negative
thing it's not a bad thing it's nothing
to be ashamed of
boundaries definitely can save a
relationship and my boundaries
now since getting out of a relationship
with a friend of mine that really was a
toxic and draining relationship there at
the end one of my biggest boundaries
that I have to place within my my
relationships is I no longer am going to
be a therapist I and what I say that is
you know I'm not going to only be
listening to the person's problems but I
also want to be able to talk I also want
to share I also want to be able to
communicate and not just be a receiver
that is just constantly hearing pour me
pour me pour me pour me and that's kind
of how I felt at the end and it was like
hey you know sometimes you got to look
around and see that you placed a lot of
that poor me situations on yourself you
have black on your foot oh yeah okay
they're up there you know and I embraced
so many relationships and I love
relationships but you know relationships
can be on so many different levels and
you know even the most closest and best
friend --is-- relationships need to have
boundaries and I finally have learned
that because if you don't have
boundaries then your relationship is
doomed its doomed because there's just
nothing that's going to you're not going
to be able to save a relationship if you
don't have about
jury set up in some way so anyways that
is my spill for today but I will check
it with you guys tomorrow we're supposed
to get a really bad snowstorm tonight so
we'll see I don't I don't even know
because I have my ultrasound tomorrow I
have counseling tomorrow I have all
these things to do tomorrow and yeah I
don't know if I'm gonna get any of it
done but I will check in with you guys
tomorrow bright and shiny in the morning
until then sweet dreams bye bye
